Rush weekend. First weekend back at UMass and it was pretty rad. Met up with some pretty cool people from Mt. Holyoke who i never thought I'd see again. I'm really frigun stoked i figure out my classes and shit. Also, Choke is an awesome fucking book. I highly recommend it!!!!

I'm listening to old Box car racer. That rules too. I'm wicked stoked on life right now......

yeah.

I started reading again for leisure. This never happens. Good ole chuck Palahniuk sucked me Right back in though. It's funny reading about a sex addicted museum working doctorate dropout. I'll stop real soon when i actually have to do work for my classes. I just got really bored on this day off.

Today was worthless. Basically sat in a chair all day and watched TV, read, listened to music, promoted. This isn't a way to live. Granted it was a lazy snow day, i hated it.

I again realize how much i love my mother's cooking. The DC just ain't cutting it these days. Although, the did have some pretty delectable hot nestle cookies today, which i stole three of. Delectable. It's nice to steal fresh fruit too. for some reason i won't eat it at home. it's weird...

i've been to four of my classes so far. They seem pretty awesome. I'm taking Philosophy, Microbiology, Micro Economics, Calc, and hopefully a small business course that i'm not supposed to have. I was supposed to meet with the professor today about it but the snow kinda kept me from doing that. Oh well, hopefully Friday :/

I ordered some new Nike 6's today. Pumped for those to come in. I'm really diggin nike lately. My aunt know the guy who is in charge of Nike ID. I'm trying to get an in there :D That would make my life. speaking of cool nike's. Check out these. they are from the tim burton movie Coraline.
Those frigun rule, minus the huge button on the laces. Stitching on those are perfect. Too bad only 1,000 were mad and you have to have them given to ya. I can hope i guess...



I need to finally cave in an hire someone to build me a website or myspace. It's a lot of money that i don't really want to spend. But it'll separate me from the rest. uhhhh...... hurry...


I'm so bored right now that i actually would like to be doing work right now. how awful...

I'm seriously contemplating just bumming around the country and seeing people i know after tour is over this summer. Just kind of sick of the same routine, ya know? I won't follow through. I never do...

This valentines day is going to suck. I can't remember the last valentines day where i was single. It's a stupid bullshit commercial holiday anyways. But i'll still go find some cute girl and ask her out to dinner somewhere. we'll see...

i'm done rambling...

The soles of those shoes glow in the dark for christ's sake! bright blue!

Sometimes you think it's 2008, but that's completely OK.

we'll do a quick little run down of my life for the past month. It's been a while...

So yea, Finished printing most of my winter release for paradox. I did everything but one shirt i wanted to do. No biggie though, I'm extremely happy with what i put out. The economy is taking a small toll on my sales. My normal poorer demographic is even more poor. Boo frickity who... I'm over it :)

The release shows were cool. There were a bunch of shows i sold at this past month and they were all pretty rad. Rockfest 3.5 was definitely a lot cooler that i thought it would be. Attendance was great and there were a lot of good bands.

The cigar igloo was a bit of a disappointment. First off, Coop and I ordered i think 130 "cigars", which was awesome.... until we realized what we had ordered. We ordered our normal white owl's and decided to go out on a limb and try some new brands. We found a raspberry "Bliss" cigar from our supplier and basically got it because it had nice cleavage on the box. TERRIBLE choice, I must say... They turn out to be filtered, cigarette like objects. Awful things. We ended up selling a good chunk of them to Emilee who we peer pressured into smoking with the help of Dustin :) good times...

We waited the entire break for packing snow, but for those of you who didn't go outside in January, it was an average of negative 70 degrees outside, which makes for awful packing snow. We attempted making one anyways with about 8,000 gallons (PDP's rough estimate) of water and fine powdery snow... It turned out to be a pretty kick ass ice bunker, and that's it.

Then, RIGHT as people leave to go back, we get perfect packing snow. go figure... Oh well, until next time.


PDP Productions did some pretty rad shows too (rockfest 3.5 included as i mentioned before). We did one particular show in Albany, NY which took huge turns for the better, and ended up kicking our ass for the worst. The show turned out to be a lot better then we'd expected, we met some rad people and had a pretty kick ass time. We had a bent axle that we were aware of and were pretty skeptical about. We started the voyage home, only to pop two tires on our trailer, and then having to have our trailer towed back to Greenfield. It turned a 2 hour drive into about 7 hours. Before the tow though, Coop and I had a chicken Mcnugget eating contest. Never do this in your life.... They just taste awful after you get into the twenties. By the thirties, It's not even a chicken flavor.... Interesting night.

I'm currently sitting in my room twitching and writing this. I got three wisdom teeth out Thursday morning, which kinda blew. I only had three, unlike the traditional four (brushes shoulders off). I'm on Vicodin which is giving me the shakes. It gets super annoying but I'm over it. I had to do two shows for a local middle/ high school today which was interesting. It turned out really well though :) Vicodin is giving me CRAZY dreams too. It's pretty cool if you don't mind waking up every 20 minutes thinking your in weird ass situations. haha.

It's my mom's birthday today. Go her!

School finally starts Monday, which reminds me that i still need to register for a fifth class. This month break was a little too much for my liking. I can't wait to go back, finish my second semester, then have a kick ass summer. I found an old friend from last year's Warped Tour and found out he's doing Bamboozle down in NJ. He kindly asked me to tag along and sell for him. I'm super stoked because: A.) I can sell water to fish B.) Enter Shikari is playing. That never happens C.) I love music festivals and have wanted to go to Bamboozle for a while D.) The dudes I'd go with rule.

Warped '09 should be pretty interesting. I'm still figuring out stuff with getting Paradox up and running on the tour. I think it should work out nicely.


But seriously, It's 2009 already? What happened to my life?


I'm making enemies again... tisk, tisk.

we fit like perfect puzzle pieces

First semester of college is over... Awesome. I think i did all right. not terrible, not great. good. I'm happy to be home for a month though.

My boss called me up asking if i wanted to work over break. He gladly gave me 6AM shifts.... Kill me. I'm not a morning person and it's gonna frigun kill me. It'l be nice to make some dough though. Being a poor college student sucks!

I'm slowly getting over a sickness that i got just in time for finals. That's a plus.

I've been super delayed with the new line. I dind't realize how much stuff i actually had to do. I have mounds of shirts all over my room, you can barely walk. Along with my mannequins sprawled out around the place. It's an interesting site. I'm so overly stressed for my release, and i don't think i'll be able to put all of my stuff out on time which is a SUPER bumer. I'm still having difficulties with some of my suppliers sending me the wrong stuff over and over again. Hopefully i can find a way to get it all done.

On top of this, christmas is stressing me out, and seeing all the people i want to see before they go back to school :/ AHHHHHHH!!!!!!

I don't get stressed out too often, but when i do i take it to the max. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

Snow came finally. too bad it's the gay powdery shit. I need that wet shit, son. Igloo building may commence tomorrow though. The snow is looking pretty good for packing says the forecast. should be fun. I got a bunch of people that want to do it so hopefully we'll build a massive one. I see a lot of them flaking on the actual work side of it though. whatever.

Me and coop bought 120 cigars last night. HAHA. 120... 2 cases of grape white owls, 1 case of chocolate phillies, and a case of raspberry bliss. We haven't even had the bliss before. It just had nice cleavage on the box so we went for it. You can't go wrong with raspberry though. hmmmmmmmmm.....

Bed time. Maybe i'll get 2 horus before i wake up at 5:30..... sigh

PS- Therefore I Am is on all of warped '09. They're a band i've loved for about 4 years now and they're local bostonians. I'm trying to work out a sponsorship with them througha good friend. We'll see what comes of it :)

It's been about three and a half years since i've watched the sun in ful rotation.

I pray for rain:
I didn't sleep last night. First all-nighter writing a stupid paper about myself. I feel like complete shit now which I'm slightly regretting. My stomach is in a pretty big knot right now and I'm not sure if it's all the shit i put into my body to stay awake or other shit. I'm a little wired, a little tired, tiny bit shaky, and really dehydrated. I'm not quite sure if it's hunger I'm feeling either or if it's that weird nausea i get. The kind that makes me tense up and shake at things that bother me. sigh. I really can't wait to sleep at one...
stressors currently messin' with my mind:
-women
-finals
-essays
-exams
-Christmas presents
-my lack of sleep
-whatever sickness i have right now
-paradox

Plastisol:
I did a ton of printing for pretty much this entire past weekend. 2 full days worth and only about a 4Th of what i need to get done for the release. It was less than i planned to do but turned out very nicely. Maybe I've gotten in over my head, but i got what i asked for :) I'll probably get someone to slave away in my sweatshop with me over break. We shall see.

Kit:
I lost some of my chops from being on tour. that utterly blows. I went from playing my kit everyday to about a few times a month. I'm lucky if i get to play once or twice as month while I'm at school too. I miss that outlet of stress relief. I'll try and catch up over break though.
I don't need wisdom anywho...
Around my release show(s) and highly anticipated recording dates with Undefyed, I get the good old wisdom teeth out. I'm not stoked, but I've only got three so i guess I'm somewhat thankful.

Increase your dosage...
Get down with the get down. 9 days and I'll be in a better place. This one is dumb.

To be continued...

weird beginning of a week....

more later...

something for someone...

You only live once, so why not die of smoke inhalation?
Over winter break I'm building an igloo(assuming we get snow). Not many people build igloos and i think that's a shame. It's a lot of work but i think it's worth the reward. I built one with some friends a year or two ago and it was awesome. We basically packed recycle bins with snow and made them into bricks, stacked about a hundred bricks, and patched in the holes. And that was our igloo.

This year will be different, we're making a cigar igloo. It's something I'm wicked stoked on. I love cigars. Not cuz I'm like addicted, but because they're relaxing. They remind me of friends. Good times with friends where we just chill. I miss just sitting on my back porch at 2AM just smoking and chilling out. I can't think of a time i had a bad cigar smoking experience ha ha. I'm a tool. But yea, the plan is to build an igloo with friends (hopefully Dustin can come out) and then after just smoke with all of em in this igloo. Ventilation may be an issue...

I recently started chewing (NOT dipping) and I'm not sure how i feel about it. I get weird nicotine highs. It's weird. Yes, I do know it can cause cancer. So can standing too close to a TV, talking on your cell phone, or inhaling the sweet scent of burning plastics :) I don't plan on making it a habit. Plus it grosses people out. I don't know.


Bro...
I got a taste of Cali and want to go back. NOW! Warped in California was like, the best, and there is no cold weather :)I love palm trees, beaches, California girls, in-n-out burger. And unlike Kevin, I do like the huge glasses girls wear. I think it's hilarious.

NOTE: if you've never been to In-N-Out burger, GO!!!! Delectable burgers..... dear god they were good. I convinced my boss to buy me a shirt from there when we were on tour. I was "supposed to pay him back". Any burger joint that has a secret menu is worth mentioning.

Along with some other things I dislike:
I really despise the sound of my own voice. Is that sad? I think i sound like a tool. Speaking of the sound of my voice, I hate 1-ply toilet paper. Someone once told me, "There are two things you can't cheap out on in life. Bedding and your toilet paper". The concept of one ply is just dumb. You're just going to double it up anyways...... Jeez. That's one of the things i hate about college. Communal bathrooms suck, but i can deal with it. The other thing that really grinds my gears( haven't seen family guy in so long) is my bed at school. Those of you who have been in my room know how nice and comfy my bed it. It sucks you in. Lets just say my bed at school is "lacking".

Once upon a time....
The pipes in my dorms use to clank constantly all night. There were a few nights where i noticed it so much i stayed up until about 5:30AM. That sucks when you have classes at nine. But tonight, there are no clinks and clangs. I fear that this won't last because today was fairly warm. I'm doomed....

What happened to my life?
Since this summer i really started to realize how old i was. I took on a lot of new responsibilities I'd never had to think about. I look back now and wonder where all those days of playing with my race cars went, where the hell my Lego castles have disappeared to, and why the hell I ever sold my N64. ya know? The good days. Where I didn't have to worry about that project i had due, or pissing that person off, or just... being responsible. I miss the days where i had no worries. I miss following my dad around or doing arts and crafts with my mom. I miss being little, when both of my feet could fit into the show prints my dad's boots would make. He still has those same boots haha. It's weird to me how my feet can't fit in them anymore. I'd venture back there for a while if i could. There is something in the new line inspired by this.... You'll see.

Inspiration:
I met a lot of cool people this summer and still miss two of the dudes i was closest with. Like... A LOT.... Kevin I think really helped me mature as a person the past few months. He opened my mind to see things in different ways. I kinda took grasp of a new way of living. He inspired me to start writing this shit. So thanks. I owe you a Sammich'. He's a really cool individual and i miss the look on his face when he'd be like " Really, dude? You just sold three cases of comps in an hour? Really?". Good times.



Then there is Jim Riley. Him and Kev were like my two big gay dads on the tour (they are both very straight). Jim taught me a lot. haha. I'll never forget his thanks... "Thanks for buying me dinner this summer". It's one of those you had to be there things... I miss him doing jumping jacks in mosh pits, knowing EVERYONE on the tour, him being godly with women, and his cute blue eyes. Jim and I would sucker groups of girls into buying shit. That was hands down awesome. He's a rad dude. I'll post a picture of him in his prime down here somewhere :D

I miss those dudes.....









Small World...
So i do these local shows with Bands and solo artists and the craziest thing just happened. For my English class I had to read an essay out of a Student Anthology titled: Year I Missed Winter, By Rosie Walunas. Rosie is a wicked nice, cute, and talented girl that plays our shows a lot. It's a small world. Ha... Anywho, She's awesome...

Speaking of shows...
I have a huge passion for doing live sound and lighting reinforcement. I work (I wouldn't call it "work" per say) for this production company called PDP Productions and it's like, one thing i absolutely love. If i was asked to do sound on a 365-day, show a day tour, I'd already be packing. I love it. I love the people I work with and all the cool people i get to meet. More importantly, I allow a bunch of people to have a great time at a kick ass show. If you want to see what I'm talking about, come to a show. (my clothing line will be debuting new items at these shows) Here are some upcoming dates we have:

-January 3Rd- Greenfield Green Teen
-January 4Th- Enfield, CT
-January 9Th- Albany, NY

You can also check out www.pdpproductions.com for more information :)

On another note...
I'd like to leave this post with these last words.

"Bigfoot's Dick"